Why do I have this?

It's late at night, and I'm just kind of killing time so I decided to write in this blog of mine. It made me wonder why exactly I have this blog. I was never big on posting my thoughts on the internet for the entire world to see. I rememer when livejournal was popular. I never got a livejournal. It seemed like a waste of everything to me. And I in no way ever wanted all of my thoughts, feelings, emotions, and the like posted online for the entire world to see, criticize, scrutinize, and the like. Jess has a blog to keep the world updated on her life. Leah posts her poetry. I'm not sure what Daniel's is for, and Philip talks about politics and computers. I'm not a poet, I could care less about computers and politics, and I don't have any significant events in my lfie that I need to update on this blog. Especially not any that aren't already on myspace or facebook.

However, I might as well type something since I already started this pointless post. School is ending, and these past two weeks have just been a whirlwhind of events and changes and decisions and driving. Life is kind of spiraling out of control. And anywhere that I could go to unwind is also part of the spiral. I'm torn between people and worlds and situations. There's been so many decisions, choices, factors that affect my life that I'm not sure I realize at this moment. Things just all happened so fast that I never stopped to think, and before I knew it everything was turned upside down. And, adding finals week on top of that, it's been hectic. I think on Friday everything will settle down. I'll be back at home, and life will just kind of pause.

Speaking of home, I never realized how much I thought of college as home until I came home on Monday. I stepped out of my car and looked at campus, and just realized how content I felt inside. I love this campus. It's home. I'm sure Leah could say that more poetically, and Daniel could write it more grammatically complex, and Jess would know how to make it interesting. But I expect that you, nonexistent reader, know the feeling I am talking about. And at this point I am honestly just rambling because I'm tired and I'm putting off sleeping, because tomorrow is kind of a busy day, with a lot of stuff to do and more driving. As much as I want tomorrow to come, I also just don't want today, and this feeling of being at college with all my finals done and the world at peace to end. I want to stay right here, content and calm, with nothing to do but sit on my bed with my computer in front of me, with nothing to do.

Well, I think that's all I have to say today. I'll probably post in a few days about how much I love Christmas, since I'm playing piano for a Christmas Pageant, and then I'll really be in the Christmas mood. I love Christmas.